I started running when I work out and now my right knee aches, I can’t stop picking my face, and I picked my shoulders today too, and yesterday, and I have fucking acne all over my back, and I’m gaining weight. I know these things are pity, and that’s what’s even more ridiculous about it pissing me off.

I keep thinking, and thinking, and thinking.. What the hell am I going to do with my life? I have nothing to use. No talent, no skill, no experience. 

Is how I feel. Hi, everyone. It’s been a while since I’ve been here. Change is.. different. I haven’t had a need to be here, because I’ve felt positive. Now I feel not-so-positive, so here I am. I have missed the emotional freedom here on Tumblr.

Things have been alright. I’m still fighting my Dermatillomaina. I’ve realized that my need to pick seriously increases when during PMS. I just get frustrated and anxious easier than normal, and I fall harder. My body image has decreased as well. I feel like I need to lose weight, and that’s been hard, because I comfort eat. I haven’t yet earned enough money to buy a good amount of healthy food to last me through the week, and every time I feel hungry all I see is a pulsating “FAT” label on whatever I see in the kitchen. 

I felt like I was doing better. But now I feel like I’m falling. Again.